Disasterpiece

2012-02-11T19:02:00.002+08:00

secondary 1-3 failed almost all subjects
sec 4, wake up call after first relationship break up. studied hard for o lvls.
my wish back then.. to get a diploma and get a stable job in the future..
poly year 1 & 2, social anxiety disorder, depression..
my wish back then.. to be able to live normally.. to make friends.. hope to live life happily.. no expectations.
poly year 3, anxiety under medication control..
my wish now.. to be rich.. to get into uni..
i am never contented.. i don understand why..

how's life?

2011-07-27T00:27:00.003+08:00

bad... cos of my bank going flat ! :(
i've finally got a rough view of what i really want in life, thanks to ben & my uncle.
everything is going ok.. just $$$ problem & some emotional stuffs. anxiety medicine dosage has been reduced.. gna ween off from the medicine soon.. not sure if i still can live normally after that .. for my current relationship.. i really hope things could go well forever.. been fighting recently:( both of us need to cool down i guess.. i wish i could give in more.. but i have been super moody recently also... quitted from st james bartending job a week ago.. i hve only worked for 2 days . LOL.. i think everyone dam dulan with me for being MIA after that 2 days. lol.. i had never stay more than 2 weeks for part time job.. but right now i really need a stable part time job.. let me tell you the exact amount i have in my bank - 71.98. LOL i dno how it ends with a 98 cents also..
i really get into 'emo' state easily.. and when that happens.. my bank gna minus 10 dollars again for cigarettes :( but i feel ok with it.. as long as theres sth i can do when i feel down. i actually feel disappointed in myself.. for being that same old guy after so long.. that guy with that weak mentality and cry easily despite his huge physical size..

fuck

2011-05-10T22:59:00.003+08:00

i need to get those thoughts out of my mind before i go suicidal. help me.

2011-05-09T11:34:00.002+08:00

wow it has been some times since the last time i blogged.. i swear the weather nowadays so motherfucking hot man. my life has gone through quite a big change throughout this past few months.. a change for the better? i guess.. got hooked up with the nightlife and i'm sort of enjoying it although my grades worsen a little lol.. my mental health has gotten better.. still on medication though.. still gets paranoid occasionally.. looking back.. been a fucking jerk for a period of time.. omfg i can't believe what i did too.. i have always voiced up for the innocence and defamates the fucking hypocrites but i guess i am one of the bad guys too lol. now i understand.. dont judge.. u have to be a bad guy to understand how a bad guy feels too . ok its ok readers you guys dont have to understand wtf i'm saying.. this space is just for me to make random rants about the happenings in my life.. just fucking dont act like a holy piece of shitty saint when u have never been through anything yet..

2010-08-12T21:24:00.001+08:00

leaving the memories here.. heading off to tumblr . bye blogger

2010-08-12T00:17:00.002+08:00

there again.. sitting in front of this computer , staring blankly at the screen and typing this .. bubble burst, awaken from the fantasy, illusion faded.. tears were dropped and heart was broken by a little. never thought that this could get so real. im sorry for everything .. i guess this is the consequences of being greedy and wanting something that does not belong to me. now u r freed.. without restrictions.. hope u find ur happiness soon.. leave me .. i shall heal my own wounds.. im strong no worries :) god gave me a strong mentality to walk this difficult path..
walking on .. seeking for light once again.

Noob

2010-08-07T18:42:00.002+08:00

Hi, I'm a noob in blogspot. I need people to help me to update blog and put tagboard. Lol!♥

2010-07-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

don't seek for perfection, seeking for perfection is like seeking for death

2010-07-17T13:20:00.002+08:00

its been such a long time ever since i made a post on my blog .. life's been like a roller coaster.. going up and down.. experiencing the unexpected surprises and fears. Sometimes ago i thought there's already nothing good to look forward to in life, living aimlessly like a zombie, pleasuring my mind with the leftover nostalgic thoughts. However, someone i knew recently has managed to make me see light. Pretty sure she will not see this post, but i just need to express myself.. in a way to update this '' soon to be dead '' blog :] im confused though.. maybe its just like drugs, a temporary relief..

2010-07-12T02:11:00.000+08:00

rena lim is a pig :)

2010-05-09T01:09:00.003+08:00

happy mother's day ! hahaha .. didnt get to wish my mother the moment the clock strikes 12am .. shes slping already zzz .. and im sure if i wake her up to just wish her.. she will scold me de !

so ive decided .. im gng to call for pizza delivery tmr .. just a little something for my mother :) tmrs quite eventful ( tmr : sunday ) , mother's day , going to J8 to watch the CP food eating competition, and gym ! sunday's always that busy .. and nxt is monday -_-

haha, stayed at home for the whole day .. trying to do the engineering design homework.. and i tikam-ed thru and finally finished it yay ! haha.. i only go out once today - lunch with kerboon :) when i step out of the house .. i feel like a caveman walking out of his cave ..

and my sis seriously has an attitude problem.. the moment she came back home .. the house become dam noisy luh ... damn it .. she doesnt have any manners towards papa n mama.. sometimes .. i always emo about not being a good brother .. but wtf.. i just feel the need to say something whenever she starts talking back to our parents .. her parents = my parents ... seeing papa mama sad i also will sad 1 ok :( altho my papa also dam fucking noisy and always try to find arguments with my mama .. i still dont hate him .. yea i always kp to my frens about how much i hate my father n stuffs .. but pls understand .. an angry man talks no sense .. haiz enough of rants .. i promised myself to be happy and think positively all the time so to be able to get rid of my anxiety .. if not im gna feel suicidal again.. haha yeah.. i most probably dont have the balls for that .. but suicides are involuntary .. so from now on ..

NO WHAT IFS & SCREW THE OBSESSIVE THOUGHTS ! :D

sian.. stay at home whole day means sit at home whole day.. till my butt pops out a pimple .. hahaha.. i still rmb i got a fucking huge acne on my butt last year .. and it fucking hurts like a bitch.. 1 morning i woke up to find my underwear stained with blood .. a BIG patch of blood.. the acne burst .. disgusting to u readers.. but painful to me .. i always wondered what will happen if i got such a huge acne on my face .. it will be super painful ...

time to sleep ..

2010-05-08T02:02:00.002+08:00

yay !! nice friday afternoon nap i love it . hehe.. ok this was suppose to be a post from friday but the time has passed 12am betch.. i totally love friday's lessons hahaha its like gng to school for 2 hours only . den makan and go home ! supposed to have dinner tonight with kerboon they all.. but failed again. ahhh.. when can we have a successful dinner man ? hahaha.. seems like everyone is so busy .. im feeling a little sad right now becus time passes really fast.. saturday already.. den in a blink of an eye.. it will be sunday .. and here comes monday again.. argh ..

so today i went to the gym alone .. fucking a lot of ppl lor nabei.. and the weather is so fucking hot .. on my journey there i nearly wan to jump into the drain to cool myself .. theres quite a number of secondary chiiobus in the gym today ahaha :x and i saw an insanely strong and huge guy .. he seriously acts like a robot .. his face .. everything he do... his face look so emotionless .. but srsly .. his strength and physique are very impressive sia ! inter-resting :D hahaha ..

i went to eat lunch after that.. while waitin for the mrt train to come .. as i just said the weather is dam fucking hot .. i really wan to jump down the track liao luh cb !

i reached amk and went da bao food .. i was waiting for my food to be done .. watching the chef cooking .. it reminds me of my sec 2 F&N final practical .. which is a test.. hahaha .. all of us were asked to cook a dish .. i srsly dno how to cook.. at that time i dont even noe how to cook an egg LOL.. cup noodle is the only thing i noe how to cook ! .. so i got most of my help from my partner - junkiat .. if not i would have failed .. so i cooked something like fried noodle .. i swear the smell smelt like glue .. holyshit .. if we were asked to eat up our own food after the test..i would literally die on the spot hahaha! i looked around .. saw most of the ppl prepared soup for side dish as well.. so i decided to COPY:) i took out every ingredient i have .. only to find out that red dates and cabbage seems the most decent to be in a soup .. so without any seasoning , salt or sugar etc ... i just boiled a bowl of water and pour the ingredients in .. the soup taste ' delicious' ! HAHAHA .. its like .. plain water with a little bitter taste .. ._. i miss the past man ... secondary school is filled with fun and amusing troubles .. the days without any psychological barriers , without any worries :) the only fear is NAFA test ahaha .. talkin about that .. i still rmb i cant finish my 2.4 km run during sec 1 .. it was one of my most embarrassing moments in my life .. getting called back by my teacher while running halfway.. cuz everyone gna leave already LOL.. i hope no one other than my friends still remember this incident .. secondary 3 i started training my body .. going to the gym .. jogging .. now at least i passed my NAFA .. borderline pass tho .. bros n frens ask me why i love to go to the gym so much .. guys .. im grateful to the iron weights for the confidence i have now :) tho still not enough to get a good grade for nafa .. but self-improvement is what we humans should seek for :)

OK back to today .. before going to the gym.. i makan-ed at school with raith n patrick.. raith was like dam dulan with the food he ordered haha.. i looked at what he ordered.. and i was like '' wa save money ? '' .. in the end he told me it cost him 4 dollars.. lol.. i feel angry for him man .. little amount of food so expensive ??!?! we r eating in school foodcourts .. not the restaurant !! i heard from frens studying in nyp that theres a stall in their school selling 5 nuggets for 1 dollar .. wow .. eating that is a great way to save money man ! sometimes ..i really regret going to sp .. i kept thinking back what makes me chose sp back then ? the journey is so fucking far .. somehow .. i also feel that im starting to hate engineering modules .. fuck .. my life is pretty messed up now .. still lookin forward to 19 may .. i really hope my life will change for the better after that day .. Now .. with frens like patrick n raith .. i dont really mind staying in sp anymore .. i just fucking hate the chao cheebye long journey lor .. hahahaha!! u noe its dam saddening to see ur other frens wake up so late for sku .. but u gotta wake up so early .. i ' PUI ' ! LOL

right now my desktop clock shows 2.27AM .. should i sleep ? or enjoy the midnight chilling time awhile more ? haha.. at least i did some productive studying just now .. im feeling so relieved .. :)

2010-05-06T19:13:00.002+08:00

today my panic attack got kinda bad .. i feel so depressed for the whole day becos of that and i had gastric when i was on the train going home .. :( but im ok now after having my dinner :)

almost all the students should have a reason to be happy today becos tmr is friday ! hahaha ! the best day of the week .. :D was thinking if i shud cut my hair tmr ?

haha.. as i promised myself and daryl yesterday night , i will study tonight ! :)

2010-05-05T18:56:00.002+08:00

ive always hated going to the mrt stations toilets.. its very dirty and filled with ah pek camping to watch young guys pee LOL . today morning when i was gng to school .. before i went in the station .. i had an urgent nature call so i went to the toilet .. as i expected.. a creepy old uncle was camping in the toilet .. i went to an empty urinal .. he went to the one next to me .. and wtf.. he kept staring at me .. dammit .. so stressful .. it took like near 1 min for my pee to come out .. is he pervert or what ? smlj sia .. wads so sensual and pleasurable about watching other guys pee ? lol.. really feeling boxing him .. but becuz of my kind nature .. i didnt .. hahaha

so i reached school at 8.30 , missed half of the lecture :( 2 hrs tutorials after that .. as usual .. let off early .. went to the rock climbing place watch raith and weijie climb .. slack thruout . lunched . gems .. gems is dam boring luh .. i dont even understand what the teacher talkin about .. those ultra-chim profound words .. DNA related .. and talkin about protein ? i only know the type of protein for repairing and building muscles LOL. an hr passed .. the lecture ended when the lecturer said we're too tired to listen to anymore lecture hahaha .. i think she herself is tired too :) and she announced there will be games next week .. games ? most probably quizes .. hahaha..

went to YCK gym after gems .. met weetat .. theres effing lots of ppl in the gym today .. i saw 2 guys with tattoos on the back .. dam shuai luh !! its like a V- tapered muscular back with tattoos OMG !! will i be getting inked in my life ? parents , the cost , the pain OUCH.

lunched at nyp .. went to wait for bus to go home .. and the most fucking dulan thing happened.. i missed both bus 162 and 853 !! ><

i realised something weird about me .. my appetite always tend to get bigger after wednesday .. haha.. :)

2010-05-04T19:22:00.002+08:00

lol the previous post was dam whiny .. well.. but posting that kinda pussy post sort of relieves me .. today was a tiring day , sku lesson 8 - 5.. was feeling unwell since morning . probably due to the fucking spicy curry i ate yesterday .. which leads to me taking a giant dump in one of the school toilet .. i hate to shit in the school toilets..the cubicles are so small.. i nearly fell down when i was wiping my butt HAHAHA! shitting in the school toilet is like going through an intense leg workout ..

i just got home and saw a video of 2 kaninabei chaocheebye motherfucker punks setting a dog on fire .. i was like .. wtf are they thinking at that moment ? fucking sick .. i hope karma will punish them one day.. dammit .. i hate ppl who abuse animals .. they are living things man .. they have feelings ! theres no need to vent their anger of frustrations on those poor little helpless animals .. nb..

yay .. tmr is wednesday ! weights day hehe ! the only sad thing about tmr is there is gems sia .. i really hate gems .. i think its a waste of time .. seriously i think majority of the students dont give a damn about their gems grade.. all they want is a ' pass ' . why wouldnt the school remove the gems idea ? let us go home study mah ! hahaha ..

will be hitting up the gym with weetat tmr .. and maybe teabreak after that at NYP ! haha yay !i really hope tmr's weather will be good .. and not so hot .. sigh .. mother nature is angry with us ... pls forgive us !! and let the weather be back to normal !! :(

right now im thinking whether to study or take a nap ...

2010-05-03T23:37:00.002+08:00

its the 3rd week of year 2 in sp .. and i can say its fucking sian liao .. everyday so early .. and the modules are sian .. maths physics related , formulas and stuffs .. somehow im starting to regret every choice i made man .. and i got into this stupid GEMS - genetically modified food . hahaha. wads this .. i really hope this sem passes quickly .. if not i gng to fuck myself liao LOL. the only day i look forward to is friday .. i don even have the mood to study at all.. i dont even have anything that interests me nowadays .. due to some psychological reasons .. everything i do is so limited .. i wanna join a CCA also cannot .. go out high also cannot !! i can only eat sleep lift study.. i cant even have decent gains from lifting .. im slowly losing motivation .. i guess this wont last long .

haiz sian tmr start at 8 am.. electromechanical device tutorial .. the sibei luan module .. i see already i also tio confused .. im afraid to hurt myself due to confusion , like the pokemon mmorpg games .. dam stressed ah!! lots of worries ...

nowadays .. the weather also fuking knn hot .. go out walk to mrt station like journey to the earth core liddat .. buey tahan.. even some of my frens .. who i think nv had a pimple on their face before .. now start to grow pimples liao due to the weather ..

haiz ... its mother's day this coming sunday ... haven decide what to get for my mother yet ..

as days pass by .. with my anxiety not getting treated ... i feel that i dont even deserve to be my mother's son.. im just not good enough :(

friends who are aware of my case ask me not to think too much be positive .. im really grateful to them for supporting me and standing by my side .. but ... its really easier said than done .. haiz..

i dont really like to talk about my problems in realife .. it just feels so awkward .. the only way i can confide to others is through msn , sms ...

i realise ever since i got struck by anxiety .. my life changed .. i know i will never be the 'old' kai u guys used to know... its quite saddening .. i miss my oldself :(

getting kinda late ..

2010-04-19T20:16:00.002+08:00

1st day of year 2 in sp :) our class has gotten a new classmate , wahaa:D

felt tired thruout the day , been so long ever since i woke up this early - 7am.

overall , today's classes were v slacky sia, and we're getting a 5 hrs break for tomorrow . lol, i always love the first week of school .

still waiting for the letter man :(

2010-03-23T22:37:00.002+08:00

yesterday midnight , we went to the prata house :) ! HAHA!! It was my first time there, it was also my first time witnessing some ppl finishing 1 prata in 1 mouth ( leon & weetat ) , imba.. really.. we walked back home after that. Overall , it was a very good chilling session with the people man :D

lookin forward to thursday's RBC !

results gna be out tmr !

holidays are ending soon :(

3 more weeks nia ..

enjoy and cherish ur holidays viewers :)

2010-03-04T23:02:00.002+08:00

o yea.. haven't been posting for some time and guess what , exams are over !! :D i bought a guitar after my last paper :D now im still trying to play the song ' boulevard of broken dreams' lol. shawn said that was a very easy song and will allow me to learn the basics first hehe . Anw, the clique are going to have a chalet next week , 10 11 12. im so excited and looking forward to it ! aha

2010-02-24T00:19:00.001+08:00

yay i am officially 18 years old ..

1 paper down , 2 more to go .. haha.. goodluck everyone.

2010-02-20T14:18:00.002+08:00

SIAN, i lost all my money yesterday, there's not even a single cent left in my wallet now. Anw last night , 12 people went to jk's house to gamble. i promised this will be my last gambling session this year ! i went into his house with a wallet bulked with notes and coins and came out later with an empty wallet. ripped to shreds , lol

After that , we met chuan and crosby while walking to Amk central. So instead of playing lan, we went to play basketball. lol, we played like mad , till 12.30am and went home.

damn it lah, still cant get over the fact that i lost all my money.

okay i go study already.

2010-02-17T17:49:00.002+08:00

here i am ! taking a break from my revision for engineering math. i was hurling vulgarities and pointing middle finger at my paper whenever i got stuck on the questions , lol. i think i'm going crazy soon. i just hope to get over the exam quickly and go for chalet :D

2010-02-17T00:03:00.003+08:00

YOYO ! It's the end of the first few days of chinese new year . i'm feeling tired and happy at the same time, tired because of lack of sleep, happy because of the ang bao money rolling in :D.

Anw , today, xihan , shawn , fengxiang and me went to leon's house to gamble. congrats to xihan and shawn for being the big winners of the day. Well, i didn't win or lose any money. At first, i was at the losing side but i manage to get back what i lost. I was quite happy at that time , but i realised i just wasted 2 hours sitting there playing cards, while the 2 hours could actually be used for studying for my EST, argh .. Talkin about the EST, i can say i'm not really confident this time. Today afternoon while i was doing the maths past-year papers, i kept getting stuck, having to refer to answer sheets oftenly, sian .. and theres actually something much worse than engineering math - electronics. wtf ..

life has not been going well for me, feeling dulan oftenly because of the freaking knn hot weather:( And today evening around 6, i went to yck gym with daryl, only to find out that the gym was closed at 5 because of chinese new year. i was super wtf sian, coming all the way to yck under the hot weather but the gym was closed, nb! And daryl was like ' walau kai u bluff me ' lol.

So instead we went back to amk mrt track and jog as daryl wanted to prepare for his upcoming 2.4 napfa. The last time i jogged was around 10 months ago, i was already panting like siao during the 3rd round, so i stopped -_- damn sian, 3 rounds is only 1.5km, lesser than the 1.6km run which we had during PRIMARY SCHOOL. wth , my stamina lost to primary school kids

we went back after the jog.

Sian,

i guess i'm gna do some questions from the past-year papers now, yes im damn kiasu, just reached home from gambling session then want to study already. lol

alrite , peace out .

2010-02-14T17:54:00.003+08:00

lol. happy cny :) just came back from bai nian at grandma's house , had lunch and gambled there . It has been such a long time ever since i saw my father's side cousins . haha. 1 of them grew damn muscular and beastly , man siol !

Anw , last midnight , leon dota-ed with me at my house from 12 - 6 .. i cant imagine how i last thruout the 6 hours .. but i still did it to shou shui :D. we were both feeling dam sleepy before the last match of dota .. i cant even understand clearly what leon was trying to tell me when he said something . lol . he asked ' kai , u know whers the nearest mac ? ' and i replied him ' what is mac ?' LOL dam funny siah.. i only realised that when he burst out laughing out loud -_-

feeling damn sleepy now .. dno if i should study now ?.. exams starting right after the cny week:(.. im having the cny + stressed from exams mood right now .. but isnt it weird to stay at home and study during CHU YI ? ._. we should enjoy as much as we can during the anually celebrated cny .. talkin about enjoyment .. the good things about cny are recieving red packets and snacking as much as u can.. however.. ive to limit my snacks to prevent myself from getting too heaty and sick.. this is what scheduling exams right after cny can spoil the whole mood of the celebration. lol.. i mean.. arent we suppose to sweet first then bitter ( direct translation from chinese)?

right now, im thinking of what to write down here.. cos after i post this .. i'll have nth to do other than sleeping .. the whole clique is offline :(

i look forward more to tmr's bai nian .. can see those kittens again yay :D

O YA.. i wanna thank leon for giving me a bday present in advance ytd ^^ at first i really dno what to say to him other than ' thank you' , i felt dam awkward at that moment . haha.. cos i rarely recieve bday presents from a single person . very shy 1 ley.. even if recieving from guys haha!. thank you leon ! :D

alrite, i shall end my post here.. will update again soon !

2010-02-14T00:17:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE !!

ive decided to revive this blog .. suddenly dam enthu in blogging . lol ..
Todayhad reunion dinner , it was great, we had steamboat :D and now leon is at my house playing dota . weeeeee! shou ye shou ye !! aiming to play overnight . and go bai nian ..hahas
thats all.. i shall update oftenly now . enjoy ur cny ppl ! huat ah!

2009-11-30T23:39:00.000+08:00

NOVEMBER

2009-10-17T19:47:00.002+08:00

....... its the 2nd last day of holidays.. time passes really fast. haiz.. and my timetable sucks .. + GEM = 4 school days startin at 8am .. i dont really feel well waking up early ..really scared that i cant make it . lol.. so... throughout the holidays .. i didnt manage to accomplish any of the goals i stated in my last few posts :( just an improvement for squats .
anw .. jk and leon came to my house today.. they dota-ed throughout the whole afternoon while i and kk went up to chuan's house to help out on moving his furnitures..

GOODLUCK , all the best to leon n weetat :) 5 more days to O lvls . haha.. the 2 of u will be able to do well for sure..
and to weetat. i will be waitin for u at SP haha !

2009-09-24T19:25:00.005+08:00

forget about the goals in the previous post .. injured my shoulders... guess got to stop working out already .. sigh ...:(

anw... got back my results and was quite happy with it :)

sad + happy = neutral :|

yesterday ... went to kbox for the first time in my life with Desmond , Junyan , LongKiat and Ziyun .. haha. it was fun ! first time sing in front of ppl siol ._.

looking forward to the next kbox session... :) kerboon and junkiat said they wanna go lol.

going to watch phobia 2 later .. with DA BROS :D

2009-09-06T22:42:00.000+08:00

yay . dyed hair to black and cut already ! nothing much happen today ...

2009-09-05T20:18:00.000+08:00

new skin.. nice ? XD
anw .. im gna start posting already.. cuz im sure this 6 weeks holiday will be filled with events ? maybe .. 3 days of holidays passed .. nth happen -_- basically.. playing dota , sleep & gym..
"no life dota!"... "no life training!" .. Lol . i rmb hearing 1 of my classmate saying this after the last paper ... forgot who already. becuz after the paper .. wei jie said " everyday dota lo !" and patrick said " everyday training lo! " ..hahas.
ytd , jk helped me to dye my hair .. in the end the colour dam bright and quite uneven.. like a gangster ._. gna dye back to black soon.. or maybe go salon dye a darker colour. hahas.
today went to swim with chuan .. swam 2 laps and stopped -_- too many training going on there .. no space to swim already . f*ck.. decided to went to chuan's house for padwork after that .. felt great man ! it has been so long ever since iv punch that hard.. haha.. went home after that .. suddenly i have the urge to get a new blogskin and start blogging .. this is how i ended up here.. ^^
many things to do this holiday..
AIMS:
learn how to cook
go grandma's house more often
get tanned
bench - 200lbs
deadlift - 250lbs
squats - 200lbs <--- lulz.. the consequence of neglecting leg in the early days.

thats all :)

2009-06-28T22:45:00.002+08:00

the 3 wks break past.. in a blink of an eye ..............................
MST starts tmr .. first time having exams in poly . lol kinda scared ..
give me the luck pease !

2009-06-28T22:41:00.002+08:00

leon ask me to post 1

1. vampire or werewolves. werewolves

2. night or day. night

3. hunter or prey. hunter

4. crazy night out or romantic date in. crazy night out

5. Coke or Pepsi. Coke

6. sin or redeem. sin

7. high or low. high

8. god or Jesus. god

9. numbers or words. words

10. messy or neat. neat

11. rock or pop. rock

12. myths or beliefs. beliefs

13. pen or pencil. pencil

14. ice or fire. fire

15. bow or arrow. arrow

16. antagonist or protagonist. antagonist

17. paper or cardboard. paper

18. heart or lungs. heart

19. teleportation or invisibility. invisibility

20. telekenesis or reality warping. reality warping

21. machine or man. man

22. toilet paper or tissue paper. tissue paper

23. birds or insects. birds

24. pizza or burgers. burgers

25. cow or sheeps. cow

26. dream or reality. dream

27. mistake or errors. mistake

28. torture or death. death

29. left or right. right

30. brain or brawn. brain

31. chances or oppoturnities. chances

32. hand or leg. hand

33. cape or cap. cape

34. studio or live. studio

35. kaya or peanut butter. PEANUT BUTTER

2009-05-01T11:24:00.002+08:00

I MISS
-the past
-deyi
-all the frens
-disturbing leon in class
-singing hero/heroine to leon
-bullying kerboon in class lol
-shitting in the toilet with weetat
-lookin at the class rebel against certain teachers
-walkin around the school after every lesson
-slacking at KOSIO
-sleeping during chinese period
-2 and a half hrs of DNT every wednesday
-DNT after school
-playing basketball / soccer after school
-going to GSC after school
-going to 443 to have lunch together
-coming to my house and slack after school
-tuition lessons at vina & jasons' house
-not forgetting sec 1 and 2
-swimming after almost every exam paper
-chalet & chalet & chalet

sian.. good old days man .. how i wish i can travel back in time.. all these little things make up beautiful memories. shudnt hav hated sku last time .. instead.. treasure the moment..... O lvls seems to be scary .. however , the process of it is quite enjoying .. being able to study with frens till dawn , lol .. quite fun.
hui dao guo qu please :(

2009-03-01T00:59:00.003+08:00

worked for the first time in my life .. got my pay :) wow man .. i earned my first 30 dollars in my life !! quite tiring .. cb .. and a lot fked up ppl ... but overall its okay :)
got scolded quite a few times .. well.. its okay .. but jus give me my pay ..hehe :)
now i noe money is not easy to earn .. next time cant anyhow spend money ler ><

2009-02-26T23:28:00.002+08:00

weee.. new skin .. tagboard back :)

today went to make the thumbprint for orchard hotel job .. den do the stupid online enrolment thing.. so ma fan man .. tmr morning still need to go medical check up ...... zz..
lookin forward to training tmr wif chuan and cr !

2009-02-25T23:30:00.002+08:00

yay thank u all for the wishes and thx for celebrating my bday yay !

today dam happy.. finally got a job le .. a waiter at around orchard de hotel ..weeee !
and ya .. welcome cr to ASF !! :)

2009-02-19T07:36:00.003+08:00

zz.. woke up dam early today.. wake up den my father start nagging already.. siao man .. he found my boxing glove .. dam buey song .. so he start to nag liao .. keep saying things like .. boxing v dangerous .. can cause serious injury de leh ... sian luh .. i can c father and son training together so happily at the gym .. dno why he disapprove me of being in muay thai . and now he is blaming my mother for allowing me to continue to train. anw ytd training was fun . lol .. partnered wif shadow ..
fyck nth to post already ... -.-

2009-02-18T13:17:00.002+08:00

lol.. got in SP mechanical engineering.. but appealed to SP resort facilities services and management .. same as cr sia.. both of us appealed from the same course and got in the same course .. thats called bun luck ! if we get in the same class.. ITS bun bun already LOL.
hais sian.. quite scared to face the new environment .. but no choice.. hope that i can make more new frens .. if not will become the emo kid in class liao .
Yesterday.. kerboon and i went to orchard hotel , the hotel where kien is working at .. for interview .. hehe .. most prob is can get the job already :) sigh sian .. ive nv work before .. quite scared also . lol .. humji spider =/
really hope ill get the job .. but the bad thing is that the manager asked me to cut my hair short .. sian .. its like sku days .. lol
wa sian ah.. im now alone at home.. really got nth to do now .. other than dotaing wif cr ..hahaha .
hais.. nid sian till evening .. gng training during evening !
lastly.. hope that crosby and chuan will do well in their exams ..

2009-01-28T00:18:00.002+08:00

is this shit ?

no.. actually its the sauce from the rendang burger :)

HAPPY CNY ! gong xi fa cai
argh ... got fatter by 1kg throughout chu yi and chu er :( and its time to start jogging and shed off some fats already .. gna head to chuan hse later for some gambling session wif my bros and their skumates , yeah ! ah pek ji gee !!
and ya.. felt happy for my 3rd uncle .. finally become father liao .. the 17 days old baby dam small and cute luh .. soi soi liap siah ..

nice ! so small !

2009-01-20T09:15:00.002+08:00

omg .. so long nv post already.. lol
the las time i posted was during o lvls .. and now its after recieving the results .. argh..
talkin about o lvls results.. fuck it .. R4 16 R5 19 .. so disappointed luh .. lousier than prelims..
nvm its okay .. holidays now.. shud treasure it .. don wanna regret when poly starts..
sigh.. poly .. new environment liao .. so scary ! strangers everywhere !
and when poly starts ... it will be the first time im taking public transport to sku .. too far..
fuck ... dono can tahan or not ... -_-
throughout this holidays.. i haven even work once.. fk im useless man !
im freaking poor also ...

im heading to the gym later in the afternoon wif weetat , xihan and leon .. yay .. at least theres something to do today .. better than stayin at home playing computer games for the whole day ..
yeah.. from today onwards im gna try to make myself busy everyday .. cos im gettin fatter wif ea passing day .. eat play sleep - the cause

CNY is coming .. yes ! ang bao lui siah ! $$$ gna get myself a boxing glove :)
no more smelly hands after training WEEE !
okay.. shall update next time.

2008-11-09T15:56:00.002+08:00

im feeling so free now .. left wif 1 science mcq paper ;D yay.. gna work soon ..
i hav been playin dota this past few days ! wif perry and e rest :)
everyone jiayou for last paper and SONG liao

2008-10-06T21:29:00.002+08:00

10 more days to O levels .. getting fast o.o
went nebo wif leon and co. today.. leon tried the nebo gladiator challenge : complete the gladiator sandwich meal within 5 mins , stand to win 100 dollars nebo dinning voucher ..
leon did not make it .. but at least he tried . heh :) the sandwich is BIG.
sigh .. some ppl sitting near us criticise about leon .. all of us felt unhappy about it ..i bet that guy dint realise that he is whispering far too loudly .. blurdy hell .. he think that it is so easy to finish the sandwich within tat amount of time given ..

gna go back and do homework ..

2008-10-05T14:08:00.002+08:00

never post for a very long time already .. i accidentally removed everything .. the links and tagboard ... well anyway i don think anyone would visit my blog ..so i decided tat this skin will do.. everyone thinks that my blog is dead .
about 10 + more days to O levels ? im gettin scared and excited at the same time .. scared becos im afraid i will do badly for O levels .. excited becos its getting closer to freedom days ..
many have been ponning sku to stay at home and study .. same for me .. but im not those who pon almost everyday :)
yesterday while jogging .. chuan was tempting me on what i can do after O levels .. thanks.. the temptation really help me to look forward to O levels ..
i don hav high expectations .. i just wanna do my best and hav the chance to go into the course i want in poly .. and that is the last examinations in my secondary sku ..
im happy for my prelim results .. its 15 now. but i hope i can do better than that .as tuition is expensive .. i don wan my parents' money to be wasted.. haha.
heard from others that tmr is 406 class foto taking .. yay ! last class foto taking in Deyi Secondary .
shall update next time .

sigh the most saddening thing is that ....................................